May the 30th was my birthday.
I did not invite anyone because I wasn't in the mood for a celebration. I did buy myself a cake but that was all the fun I was able to experience.
My heart was troubled and I went upstairs to pray. I asked God to speak to me.
Then I opened my bible and God touched my heart.
The page I opened was about Paul's second letter to the Corinthians.
The God of All Comfort 
“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.” 2 Corinthians 1:3-4
I started to cry; He was actually answering me and comforting me through this scripture.
He's so sweet and caring.
He always finds a way to comfort us and although He has so many people to look after, He still takes the time to listen to my every need.
I love Him so much. He's always thinking of us.
We are engraved in His palms.
I want nothing more than to be with Him day and night.
I looked outside at the sky and I wondered what the true purpose of my life was.Could it be 'the love of my life'? Or fame and fortune? Wisdom?
I asked God why I really was placed here on earth.
Then I heard Him say with His soft still voice: “You were meant to be by my side, that's why you were born. That's your purpose.
Earth is a place where you are being prepared to become my spotless bride.
Earth is a place where you fight together with me to free the people from satan's oppression, because they too were meant to be by my side forever.”
His Spirit touched me and I felt His peace entering my mind and heart.
I was so glad, so relieved, to know my purpose in life.
I just love Him so much!
I remembered the way this year started out.
In January, God started to show me what my future was going to look like.
He showed me the things His Spirit wants to do through me.
Then one amazing thing after the other started happening.
His Spirit led me to buy some bible study books.
It was as if God was directly speaking to me when I read them or when I listened to a sermon. His Spirit also started to touch me and flow through me, more often and more intense.
But preparation time is the hardest time, waiting is a difficult task. Still it's part of our training to become skilful warriors for God. We need to trust and wait for Him.
Just like Joseph, the road seems to lead you further away from your destination and you feel lost now and then, thrown into the pit. But finally he was able to fulfill his destiny when God led him out of his imprisonment. He became a blessing for his people and saved their lives from starvation.
So now that I know this, why do I still feel miserable?
I guess it's just human.
But I know it won't last forever, there's a new dawn at the horizon.
Christ will lead me into His holy war empowered by His Spirit.
And He will feed his children through the heavenly manna He gives to me and He will satisfy my every desire and need.
I think I'll have some cake, do you want a piece?
You can share your joys and sorrows with me, I'll comfort you with the comfort Christ has given to me.
Love forever, Monique
