Weekly Devotional

01/17/2005

                                        Why am I weeping?

 John 20:10-18

 “Then the disciples went back to their homes, but Mary stood outside the tomb crying. As she wept, she bent over to look into the tomb and saw two angels in white, seated where Jesus' body had been, one at the head and the other at the foot.

They asked her, “Woman, why are you crying?”
“They have taken my Lord away,” she said, “and I don't know where they have put him.” At this, she turned around and saw Jesus standing there, but she did not realize that it was Jesus.

“Woman,” he said, “why are you crying? Who is it you are looking for?”
Thinking he was the gardener, she said, “Sir, if you have carried him away, tell me where you have put him, and I will get him.”
Jesus said to her, “Mary.”
She turned toward him and cried out in Aramaic, “Rabboni!” (which means Teacher).

Jesus said, “Do not hold on to me, for I have not yet returned to the Father. Go instead to my brothers and tell them, ‘I am returning to my Father and your Father, to my God and your God.' ”
Mary Magdalene went to the disciples with the news: “I have seen the Lord!” And she told them that he had said these things to her.

I cried myself to sleep last night, and this morning I felt like I was dead inside.
The future seemed to me like a terrible torture, with no hope of ever reaching my dreams.
In fact it seemed I had declared God to be death, because I didn't trust Him to take care of me. I felt utterly alone without hope, like He was in the grave.

I listened to an online broadcast of Gods Word, and the preacher talked about reaching your zero point. It was God talking to me, through this preacher.
He talked about the apostle Paul who had suffered severely until he came to the point that he thought he was going to die.

“ We do not want you to be uninformed, brothers, about the hardships we suffered in the province of Asia . We were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired even of life.

Indeed, in our hearts we felt the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead.
He has delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us.
On him we have set our hope that he will continue to deliver us, as you help us by your prayers. Then many will give thanks on our behalf for the gracious favor granted us in answer to the prayers of many. 2 Corinthians 1:8-11

I felt Gods Spirit touching me and I cried, knowing that He was speaking to me.
I fell on my knees and started to cry out to Him. Then He pointed out the scripture of John 20:10-18 where Mary thought that He was dead and His body was taken away.

She felt utterly alone and devastated. The angels and the lord, whom she did not recognized at first, asked her why she was weeping.
God also asked me why I was weeping?

He tried to tell me that there was no reason to weep for He is alive!
Mary had no reason to weep since Jesus wasn't in the grave because He was raised from the death.

God's peace entered my heart and mind and I stopped crying. I know He is alive.

So friends, if you're at your point zero. You are not going to perish. Reach out to Him. He's already reaching out to you right now, for He is alive and He's very much in love with you. You are so precious to Him.

You are so precious to me!

Love, Monique